SomEwHere oVer the RainBow

Just give yourself some sweet like ice cream when you are blue..
Hope the sweet can numb the bitter in heart..
and everything will gone with the wind..
and suit your own self again when there are some changes in life..

Keep looking forward and there's a rainbow after the rain

信任

信任是人性里最脆弱的一部分
当我再质疑妳所说的话时，是不是也代表了我对你的信任开始动摇了呢？
被蒙在鼓里或被欺骗的感受我实实在在的不喜欢，甚至是讨厌><
虽说有时善意的谎言是美好的。。
可是你们所说的，所作的却让我觉得疑惑。。
信任...请别摧毁了妳我~
希望...是唯一信念。。
但愿时间可以证明一切。。
也或许少些介意，少些疑心；

会让自己更快乐~

Trust is like a paper, once its crumble.it can't be perfect anymore.
Please don't torn the trust that i gave to you..

致青春

一天，两天，三天。。。
数一数，距离我们离开这大学的时间真的越来越近了。。
我是不舍的？？我是开心的？？
心情越来越浑肴了。。
因为我期待着离开学校以后的生活，但同时也不舍得这里的一切一切。。

《致青春》
是最近很红的一个标题。。
把这标题写在照片上，越发能让人有无限的缅怀。
将要离校的朋友们都忙着拍下所有可留念的时光。。
我的朋友群也不例外。。
四年的时间说短不短，说长不长。。
现在的我们，即将毕业了，早已习惯了单调生活，
可是时光却如流水，匆匆而过，还没来得及慢慢品味，就已消失得无影无踪。
我们都知道青春是没有彩排的，
当青春正在进行时，我们聆听着它奏响的一首首悦耳的曲子。。

青春是我们最朝气蓬勃的时代，
青春是最不理性的时代，
青春也是最需要成熟却最不成熟的时代。
因为有了青春，我和他们相聚在了一起；
我们才会拥有快乐，我们一起学习、
一起成长，拥有着共同的爱好。
我们共同进退，互相鼓励，一起走过的风风雨雨，
将会化成最美好的回忆，永远停留在我们的心中。。

可是青春离我们越来越来越远了。。
所有的不成熟，不理性；都要统统地藏起来了。。
离别在即。。感慨青春是在所难免了；
但我相信只要我们保存着一小颗青春的心。。
所有曾经历过的事情都回是我们一生中美好，无价的回忆。。
年少时的疯狂，也将会是属于我们永远的青春的纪念册。

青春纪念册 X)

谢谢你，朋友！！

Dear Diary

Tik Tok...Tik Tok..still got less than one hour then will be my BIG day..
officially age of 24th..2 round of the chinese zodiac le..sound old T_T

This week is gonna be my nightmare "attacking" week..
A stack of assignments, presentation, and i'm gonna have my test on my BIG day..
what an "awesomeee" bufday gif to me..haiz..
See..my revision notes for tomorrow test..

My emotion in this week just like a roller coaster..sudden up..sudden down..
all becoz of these tasks that i have to prepare for this week and next week..> <
i hate it soooo much!!!!!!

"Door bell ring...(watsapp)" ..
Awww...
is u.. ^___^ is u to be the first who wish me happy birthday even my bufday still havent reached yet..
I am sooo glad that u still remember my bufday for many years until now..*touching T_T*
Your wish can be a temporary sweet for me to pass thru the bitter time..
Tankiu so much..


p/s: Dear yourself..
Go Go Go..
kip battle with this..+u +u o

在我们的生活当中，不如意的事十之八九。但我们要如何去过呢？
所谓关关难过关关过。。就算再不如意，再多压力或是困难。。
我们都还是要去面对。。熬过了雨天，彩虹就会出现了。
不要因为这些因素而弄到自己阴晴不定，甚至影响他人。。
自己辛苦，身边的人也会觉得辛苦。
虽说人生总要尝尝甜的以外，酸和苦也要尝一下。。
这样我们才会成长嘛。。
但当我们再苦的时候，为何不加些糖去平衡下生活中的苦呢。。
可是单凭讲而永远没有实际的去做。。
是永远得不到我们要的甜。。
给自己，加油吧！！
打起精神来。。

Dear Diary

We feel..we hear..

your pain..you fear.. 

But we’re here to stay..

who you are is okay.. 

And don’t have to go through this on your own 

You’re not alone 

You have more friends than you know ..

Some who surround you..

Some you are destined to meet.. 

You’ll have more love in your life..

Don’t let go, give it time.. 

Take it slow...

Those who love you the most, may need more time to grow 

It’s gonna be okay.. it’s gonna be okay.. 

You have more friends than you know 

Be brave.. be strong 

You are love.. you belong 

Some day soon you will see

You’re exactly who you’re supposed to be 

Be who you are..learn to forgive 

It’s not about who you love..but how you live 

* from Glee *

Friendship can be a strong connection in life..we can learn through this, growth on this..

We lost, we pain and we gain at last..
When you are be certain and remember by your friend at anytime,anyway..
It would always be one of the best things happened in life..

Thank you for those friend who always remember me and knew my best to them..

Glad to to have you all..

Promise

Keeping secrets, love pledge, or even just a simple agreement between friends and family also can be a promise in our life..

PROMISE..

Is a kind of serious and sincere action for everyone..

~A BIG WORD~

It can makes something but can break everything also..

Sound sarcastic @.@

In this world,how many people will take responsibility to their promises??

and how many people will always break their promise?? will they always do what they had promise to us??  Human being now are easy to give any promise, but wanna comply with the promise is the hardest things to do. So funny and sarcastic,right?

In real life, we are never ever can expect what will happened on next..
So better don't simply promise anyone for anything..
once we are giving promise,please do best to honor it..

夕阳

日出和日落都是美的，也是短暂的。

可是往往人会偏喜欢日出，因为日出代表希望，

而日落则代表一种悲伤的归宿。

可是对我来说。。只要我们带着对的心态，

无论看日落还是日出。

也能带给我们心中暖暖的希望。

太阳升起了，我们也要跟着启程了。

夕阳西下了，也意味着是时候让自己歇息了，

为忙碌的一天划下句号

尽管在这一天里发生了多不如意的事，

就让它们随着夕阳漫漫的沉淀。

希望明早的日出能带来更璀璨新一天，重新出发。

p/s : 那些年，我们一起在美奈看的日落。

黑暗

每个人的心中往往都会藏着黑暗的一面..

歌也有的唱.."everybody got a dark side"
人心丑陋..他们可以在表面上对你很好..暗地里却不懂捅了自己多少刀..

在我一个小小的生活圈子里..

我看到了许多不同性格的人。

有嫉妒型的，有博爱型的，又有会说但永远却不会去实行的，有小心眼的

也有伪装型的, 等等等类型 ..

生活其实可以很简单，但为何人总爱去比较??总爱非得把其他人踩在脚下才心甘呢??

每当面对这些人,心里觉得无比的寒..

纳闷为何会这样..

只想要单纯，真心的友谊也变得像不可能的任务似的..

有时候真的廷无力的..

只因我不能从容的接受, 或勇敢的反抗..

身边能真正让我信任的也不多了..

也不能像以前一样想找人倾诉就倾诉..

因为人黑暗的一面，让我时时都在防备..

"做好自己，但愿与自己比较; 也不要与别人相较

学习从容的面对身边的黑暗，也别让黑暗侵蚀了自己"

# 成长#

Christmas Eve

Christmas is coming again.. ^^
but this will be a lonely..un-fun christmas eve..
haiz..nothing special..no place to hang out..
and i have to stay in lab to finish my lab work..
Gosh...
Hmm...i hate to wait..><

Why the milling process take long time..
Huhu..
Cannot..i dont want spend my christmas eve like this..
Gonna find some way to cheer myself..
whee... =P

Me and ball mill grinder

Why??

刚从新调子推介礼回来。。复杂的思绪缠绕了我一整天
从新学期开始到现在，我好像什么事情都没做好。。
也没认真的开始在做。。
我问我自己：为什么会这样颓废呢？？
好无力哦。。
虽然说人是群体动物。。可是盲无目的的跟从满满的群体活动是好事吗？？
就像今天这样。。为了支持我的一个同学的活动，而少了几个小时的温习时间。。
是好吗？？
为什么我不能勇敢一点的拒绝。。
为什么我不能坚持自己的想法而一直跟从朋友呢？？
啊。。。。。
或许我是很怕被孤立的一个人。。
只因为内心的自卑感越来越重了。。
曾几何时我是认为我自己是可以很优秀的。。
就算没有漂亮的脸蛋，没有出众的才华。。
我也可以很自信的跟自己说我行的！！
可是当一个人长期活在别人的影子下。。
感觉也并不好受。
自信心也会有被打败的一天。
为什么？？为什么？？
正能量赶快来吧！！

=（（（

執著

我們執著什麼，

往往就會被什麼所騙；

我們執著誰，

常常就會被誰所傷害。

所以我們要學會放下，

凡事看淡一些，

不牽掛，不計較，

是是非非無所謂。

無論失去什麼，

都不要失去好心情。

把握住自己的心，

讓心境清淨，

潔白，安靜。

放下不等於放棄，

執著不等於堅持。

p/s: 在感情世界里，彻底忘记是唯一的出路。就算再多的不愿意，再多的执著。受伤的最后还是只有自己。忍痛的放下吧。。T_T

Art making

I love art.. sometimes I feel myself got artist temper too.. =P
Kinda emotion..easy get bad temper.haha..
But I don't care. Coz this is me..As long I treat myself nice and enjoy the way I wanna be.

Art is a magical stuffs..
It can turn a very simple stuffs look great and different but unique too.
I love to do handmade card for my best buddy..for the one I love.
It did make me feel great after completed my handmade stuff..
snap a photos for it. Even though is not a very pro level.
But I do satisfy and happy on my own work.. Whee ^^

Modelling puzzle. I love that much too.
When I built it piece by piece until finished the model.
Whoa..the feel of accomplishment will overflowing myself..
Sometimes I really don't know how to describe the feel..
But if got people asked me why love modelling puzzle so much??
Haha.. what I can say is I just can't resist it. I love that. =)

1st time helped my sis to made a wall deco..
Mhmmm...I found it kinda interesting too.. Even though I didn't pain it by myself.
But the wall deco can make the environment look better and comfort.
Like my sis said..it will increase the sensation when having a candlelight dinner.
haha..

Think...

After having lunch today..Ai Ting suddenly past me a paper..
Inside there got four statements.. o.0
She told me..our CEO said everyday need to ask ourself for these four issues..
- Things to do -
- Things to have -
- Places like to see -
- Who you wanna be -
After 21 days..we will firgure out the exactly things we wish to own, or wish to be.
* start thinking*

There are many paths in our life that we can choose..
Mmm..
Have you ever been think about what core value you wish to own??
What kind of dream you wish to achive??
Many and so on....
But sometimes people always easy to lost when facing some uncertainty in our life..
I saw her kinda confusing and struggling in choosing the most suitable way in her life..
STUDY?? WORKING??

Ai Ting is a simple and smart girl..She always want to own a happy life..
"HAPPINESS" is at the top place in her core value. =)
I always learn a lot from her even though she's a new friend for me.
She make me to start think about myself..
The path that I wanna choose in my future..
We are not kids anymore..the things we need to concern is uncountable..
I shouldn't stop to get a better life for myself coz of some meaningless and bullshit stuff..
Right?? right...

Is the time for me to figure out..
Who I wanna be??
What I want to achive??
Future..is waiting for me.


p/s: first time blogging in office hours..hehe.. XP

Sophaholic

Do you ever think when you are moody..negative..unhappy..

How to lift yourself up and cheer your mood??

Haha..

I will have a crazy shopping..buy the things I like..

Sound like kinda waste money..

But I don't care.Coz this is the way to cheer myself.

Even though I'm not a rich gal..

Never mind..I just want my happiness even though the joyful moment was kinda short.

-FOS-

38~38

love^^

I enjoy the moment when in the fitting room..

Trying the shirts..dresses.

and sure snap a photo with the clothes..=P

I enjoy the moment of shopping with my friends..

Just sometimes I feel kinda out of controls also XP

Coz the price for the things I aim more expensive and expensive..

huhu XP

Grab get my things..

VOIR sandals + NICHII short pants

Money money..I want you so bad!!!

=_+)Y

Who do you think you are??

Recently I was saw get a little interesting phrase in fb..
What they share was kinda true..

"I was being so true to you

No two face

I'm care that why I ask

I won't care you if you are nothing to me

Being a friend

I had done what I can

But I really don't know how "

The two person with hatred..lies..fake..hurt..
is hard to be a friend anymore even thou is a super duper normal friend.
Maybe they said still wanna be friend..
but the way they giving their friendship is so insincerely.
Totally a faker.

I don't need the faker sympathize..
I don't need a liar be my friend..
But please don't be cruel also to your mouth's "friend" if you are not appreciate the friendship.

                                                Who do you think you are??

I haVe A DreaM

♪♫♬♩♪♮♫♪♯♬♩
" I have a dream..A song to sing..To help me cope with anything..

If you see a wonder of a fairy tale..You can take the future even if you fail..

I believe in angels..Something good in everything I see..

I cross the stream..I have dream.."

When I saw a lounge singer standing on the stage and performed the song..
R&B..Jazz..Pop..
How wish that I can be the one of them.
I like to sing..Maybe my singing skill still not so PRO..
But to me...This kind of job is very interesting..
While working while enjoying..
I like to be that..
Perhaps this may not my future career..
But be a part time lounge singer also not bad what..
Can sing a song for those in sorrows..
OR
even can bring up the environment to become more cheerful..
Should I go to try for it?
To colour my life..


p/s:
Melodies can always touch people soul.
I love melodies..♬♩♪♮♫

~ Candy ~

" Take life with a grain of salt, a slice of lime and a shot of tequila "

But sometimes you have to add some sugar in to balance it..

Maybe the salt,lime and tequila make you hard to breath..hard to keep your footstep moving on..

Just remember that life still have a corner that have sweetness inside it.

RECENTLY

When I was sorrow..pain..negative..bad memories..

I just give myself a candy.

Even though the sweetness was very short and temporary.

But at least it did remind me I have to keep moving on.

To figure out the sweet part in the world. 

Candies for mii

Coz my seat was kinda near the manager room..So I always can hear that the angry-ness of him..

The way he scold loud towards my colleagues..

Huhu..kinda scary =S

But I saw some of my colleagues's face still very calm..some look so down..

Some even still can smile after getting scold..

Hmm..If I'm the one who scold by manager..

What am my feel..I think feeling sucks huh..and TENSION!!

I asked myself..Can I stand on it??

I also don't know o.0

Haiz..but what to do.

Reality is cruel!!

Our EQ must high to handle all the critical stuffs..

This is so called life.

Hard,but we still have to stand strong on it.

DriVe drivE Driv3

I wanna driveeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I realize that if depending on other people fetching is such a hard stuff after some period.
Haiz..coz everytime also need to follow others people's time.
If earlier..then I need to be earlier..
If late..I need to wait either.
very dependable..
I'm kinda trouble others sometimes also when I wanna go out..
If I late a bit back from work..maybe kena murmur lagi XP
Haiz...
Kinda regret why I not brave enough to drive alone.
Actually driving is not really a big matter,right??
Cheryl Lee..you already got license..got car..
You can do it d!!! =.=
Must always remind myself that when I can drive..
I can go anywhere as I wish..
I won't trouble get anybody to fetch me..
I can follow my own time schedule..
I will not make my family worried if I work at other city..
bla bla bla and bla bla bla..

Hmmm..I think now is still not too late..
I wanna drive back my car and got back my freedom..
Whoohooooo!!!!!

Break Down

- Sunday -

~ Cloudy + moody ~

I couldn't stay at home anymore..
My thought..my mind full of sorrows..pain..demotivated.
Was over the limit that I can carry.
I wanna run from this space..I couldn't stand for it.
UKM..here I came to find my Yin Fen.
I'm really really thank for her coz she willing to spend her precious time to chat with me even though she got a test on Monday.
Appreciated and touched. T_T
*hugiezz*

Snap photo before I back.Tankiu..

At night..my best buddy hui teng come for me.
Until now..I still remember that night.That night I was totally break down in front of her. T_T
Hug and cry on her shoulder..Let me lean on her..
I can feel that my best buddy's supporting when she hold tight my hand and share her ohm to me.
Crumble at last..

Thank YOU...

Ohm

I seriously need more ohm..

Lies..
I already dont know how to differentiate what is lie and what is truth..
Some people good in lie, good in hide, and some people not.
Damm sucks feeling when I get to know everything was a lie without any preparation for it.
* Deep breath... *
How stupid I am to believe all those things..But actually is just a bad illusion to cover my eyes.
Blown away my rational until get myself hurt again.
I just want a simple and calming life.
You don't have to tell me your news so sudden and talking the bullshitting stuff in front of me.
Sorry doesn't help me.You think I'm ok when I'm still in recovery process?
And I don't think your wish for me is sincere.it just make you feel better and release ur guilt only.
The scar will never fade also even though it recovered.
Telling me the truth at first is that so hard for you?
Maybe what my friend said was true. You are holding on me while looking for the new one.
Nightmare oh nightmare.. I can award you as the greatest liar in our country.
Clap hand for you!!! Well done and nice job!!

Well sayings : Mama always taught us give our old toys to others.

Road

Every roads come to end. Nobody can guess what will happen at the end.

Sometimes we have to think the end can be our beginning even though we've been walk through for a long long journey. 

No matter how..people can just keep moving on and figure out the things at the end of the road.

p/s : Never fear in searching life-road.

That's Me!

When I "black face"..I just really wanna "black face".

Please don't touch and disturb me at that moment.

This is my way to express my unsatisfaction. 

If not i will blown out my bad temper..

I don't wanna be like that..hurt get the innocent people.

I just want to calm my mine down and think.
When I really want to be alone..just let me alone.
When I keep quite. It maybe mean that I lazy to speak any word especially after back from work SOMETIMES..OR really got somebody make me MAD!!!

I'm the most pampered child in my family..

Everyone tolerate with me..treat me good..

care me well..

I'm just like a little princess even though I don't have a billionaire background.

But I got my own principle.

I don't like people to cheat on me..hate people misunderstand on me..

or judge me without any deep understanding for my characteristic.

I can fully tolerate and love for the person or friends that I care.

even treat them better than myself. 

And I'm kinda sensitive for certain issue.

So I'm very appreciate for those who really understand me and will never cross my line.

THAT'S ME!!!!!

I don't expect other people to tolerate with me..follow my style..
Coz I know that's real life.
But please do think wise before speak something out.
I fully understand people like to judge people by their face or what else..

Who knows,right??

One thing is please don't misunderstand me by judging my face or anything else.

It just show that you are not know me well.

p/s : *Deep breath.........*

Calm myself..calm my mind..

Learn how to not care much.

It was a sunny Sunday..

I'm heading to Senawang there..

A new and unfamiliar place for me..

huhu..

After taking 2++ hours bus..and I stop at KL Centre..

Walk walk walk and wait for the KTM to go Labu there and meet my housemate..

Is a long journey..it takes more than 1 hour ony reach Labu..

I cant imagine if I stop at Senawang station..

How much time that I need..@.@

Huh...

Kinda heavy la..Was my 1st time to carry such that much off things with taking the public transport..

*dislike*

Our new house..

Finally we reach there safely..

But I cannot rest..Coz need to do some cleaning stuffs..

Lazy la me..=P

Swept swept..Mop mop..move move..

Whoo..my room become clean and have a new face at last..

hehe =P

I was so tired after did all those stuffs..

But I'm kinda satisfy with my new room..=) 

Coz the arrangement in room was totally handle by myself..

I make it become comfortable..^^

Before

After

Even though my mental and physical already very tired..

Buuuuuuuut..

I still sleepless that night..

Hahah..nervous?? maybe..

And my internship life is officially start d..m =)

"Hoi Gong Dai Kat" la!!!

Mission Impossible

Specially for my dearest sis ^^

St Peterburg..
A new challenging task for myself..
This mission is not for myself but for my sister too..
I don't wanna break a promise to her.
And I did it..I never thought I can make it within 24 hours..
Yeah!!!!!
I'm proud of myself..
^^

p/s: Puzzle can make me concentrate..and temporary blown away the stuffs that I don't wanna remember at all..I hope I got ability to built my broken heart piece to piece until it become complete again..

Dumplings..

Happy Duan Wu Jie ^^
-A traditional festival for chinese people-..
Jom makan makan dumplings..

Homeade Bak Zhang

Gan ShuI Zhong

Gan shui zhong wif red bean filling ^^

Mama know us the best..
Haha..since most of us are back home during this festival..
Mama had wrap some dumplings for us to eat..
yummy yummy... ( Thumb up ^^)
This year I miss the time when mama wrap the rice dumplings..
Coz I'm still sleeping. =P
I still remember last time I like to help my mama when she wrapped dumplings..
But actually not help la..just simply kacau and gepoh..
Coz i dunno how to wrap also.

Most young generation nowadays not really got celebrate this kind of traditional festival..
Include me..haha..the spirit for the traditional festival not really strong..
But is good also sometimes..
Coz festival is a good opportunity to gather all the family members..
Meet meet and chat chat..

Hee...Happy Zhong Zai Ji again =)

Grateful

Today gonna be my last night I spend in my uni's hostel..
My 3rd year life is officially end..
Time is flying..And age getting older and older..

Oops..Act like a child

In this silent night..
Some maybe still struggling with their books..
Some maybe already off to their bed..
Some maybe like me hanging around in room and do nothing..
Listening a sentimental saxophone melodies..
"Kenny G- Over The Rainbow"
and look back all those photos that I've been taken during this semester
Time was past but the great scenes still stick in the photos and in my heart.

Outing wif coursemate

My bufday celebration

Sport time

Yam Sing before this semester end

Presentation day with formal wear and doraemon ^^

Even though I still got 1 more year only graduate.
But I still will recall back everything that happened before..
What I had gain??
Knowledge?? Sure have but not much..hehe
Friendship?? Gossips gossips among friends..Judgement..misunderstanding..laugh and tears..got true friendship and fake friendship
Life principle ?? I'm still seeking a balance point in my life in order not to hurt others and myself either..Looking for the clear define way for me to keep moving in future.
Love life?? Haha..that's sucks!!! Not a great memory.Wanna deleted it.

Live Strong

Looking at my kinda empty room now..
It's make me feel like really "empty"..
Few more days later..I'm gonna starting my very first internship life..
Complicated feeling towards it..Nervous..Longing..and a little bit of worry.
I think I need to get myself prepared especially in EQ that side..
Control my impatience..control my easy lost control's temper..

Empty notice board

Books..Notes..Food CLEAR..

Bed without any sleeping stuffs =(

I wanna thanks to my uni best friend - Hui Teng
For every supports she gave me when I fall..
For every understanding she gave when I'm impatience and in bad mood..
For every caring that she gave along this semester..
For everything that she had done for me..
She is such a great girl and great buddy..
No words can say to her but just " THANK YOU "

mii and Hui Teng

Mii..Hui Teng..Woan Yiing

p/s : Life still need to go on even though I had faced a lot of issues in this semester..
But I'm still need to thank for all those great things and obstacles that come to me..
Coz they teach me a lot..gain me a lot..wake me a lot.. Thanks.. =)
Gonna off to my empty bed le..no pillow..no bolster..no blanket..
Wish I still can sleep without them..huhu..=(