I haVe A DreaM

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" I have a dream..A song to sing..To help me cope with anything..

If you see a wonder of a fairy tale..You can take the future even if you fail..

I believe in angels..Something good in everything I see..

I cross the stream..I have dream.."

When I saw a lounge singer standing on the stage and performed the song..
R&B..Jazz..Pop..
How wish that I can be the one of them.
I like to sing..Maybe my singing skill still not so PRO..
But to me...This kind of job is very interesting..
While working while enjoying..
I like to be that..
Perhaps this may not my future career..
But be a part time lounge singer also not bad what..
Can sing a song for those in sorrows..
OR
even can bring up the environment to become more cheerful..
Should I go to try for it?
To colour my life..


p/s:
Melodies can always touch people soul.
I love melodies..♬♩♪♮♫

~ Candy ~

" Take life with a grain of salt, a slice of lime and a shot of tequila "

But sometimes you have to add some sugar in to balance it..

Maybe the salt,lime and tequila make you hard to breath..hard to keep your footstep moving on..

Just remember that life still have a corner that have sweetness inside it.

RECENTLY

When I was sorrow..pain..negative..bad memories..

I just give myself a candy.

Even though the sweetness was very short and temporary.

But at least it did remind me I have to keep moving on.

To figure out the sweet part in the world. 

Candies for mii

Coz my seat was kinda near the manager room..So I always can hear that the angry-ness of him..

The way he scold loud towards my colleagues..

Huhu..kinda scary =S

But I saw some of my colleagues's face still very calm..some look so down..

Some even still can smile after getting scold..

Hmm..If I'm the one who scold by manager..

What am my feel..I think feeling sucks huh..and TENSION!!

I asked myself..Can I stand on it??

I also don't know o.0

Haiz..but what to do.

Reality is cruel!!

Our EQ must high to handle all the critical stuffs..

This is so called life.

Hard,but we still have to stand strong on it.

DriVe drivE Driv3

I wanna driveeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I realize that if depending on other people fetching is such a hard stuff after some period.
Haiz..coz everytime also need to follow others people's time.
If earlier..then I need to be earlier..
If late..I need to wait either.
very dependable..
I'm kinda trouble others sometimes also when I wanna go out..
If I late a bit back from work..maybe kena murmur lagi XP
Haiz...
Kinda regret why I not brave enough to drive alone.
Actually driving is not really a big matter,right??
Cheryl Lee..you already got license..got car..
You can do it d!!! =.=
Must always remind myself that when I can drive..
I can go anywhere as I wish..
I won't trouble get anybody to fetch me..
I can follow my own time schedule..
I will not make my family worried if I work at other city..
bla bla bla and bla bla bla..

Hmmm..I think now is still not too late..
I wanna drive back my car and got back my freedom..
Whoohooooo!!!!!

Break Down

- Sunday -

~ Cloudy + moody ~

I couldn't stay at home anymore..
My thought..my mind full of sorrows..pain..demotivated.
Was over the limit that I can carry.
I wanna run from this space..I couldn't stand for it.
UKM..here I came to find my Yin Fen.
I'm really really thank for her coz she willing to spend her precious time to chat with me even though she got a test on Monday.
Appreciated and touched. T_T
*hugiezz*

Snap photo before I back.Tankiu..

At night..my best buddy hui teng come for me.
Until now..I still remember that night.That night I was totally break down in front of her. T_T
Hug and cry on her shoulder..Let me lean on her..
I can feel that my best buddy's supporting when she hold tight my hand and share her ohm to me.
Crumble at last..

Thank YOU...

Ohm

I seriously need more ohm..

Lies..
I already dont know how to differentiate what is lie and what is truth..
Some people good in lie, good in hide, and some people not.
Damm sucks feeling when I get to know everything was a lie without any preparation for it.
* Deep breath... *
How stupid I am to believe all those things..But actually is just a bad illusion to cover my eyes.
Blown away my rational until get myself hurt again.
I just want a simple and calming life.
You don't have to tell me your news so sudden and talking the bullshitting stuff in front of me.
Sorry doesn't help me.You think I'm ok when I'm still in recovery process?
And I don't think your wish for me is sincere.it just make you feel better and release ur guilt only.
The scar will never fade also even though it recovered.
Telling me the truth at first is that so hard for you?
Maybe what my friend said was true. You are holding on me while looking for the new one.
Nightmare oh nightmare.. I can award you as the greatest liar in our country.
Clap hand for you!!! Well done and nice job!!

Well sayings : Mama always taught us give our old toys to others.

Road

Every roads come to end. Nobody can guess what will happen at the end.

Sometimes we have to think the end can be our beginning even though we've been walk through for a long long journey. 

No matter how..people can just keep moving on and figure out the things at the end of the road.

p/s : Never fear in searching life-road.

That's Me!

When I "black face"..I just really wanna "black face".

Please don't touch and disturb me at that moment.

This is my way to express my unsatisfaction. 

If not i will blown out my bad temper..

I don't wanna be like that..hurt get the innocent people.

I just want to calm my mine down and think.
When I really want to be alone..just let me alone.
When I keep quite. It maybe mean that I lazy to speak any word especially after back from work SOMETIMES..OR really got somebody make me MAD!!!

I'm the most pampered child in my family..

Everyone tolerate with me..treat me good..

care me well..

I'm just like a little princess even though I don't have a billionaire background.

But I got my own principle.

I don't like people to cheat on me..hate people misunderstand on me..

or judge me without any deep understanding for my characteristic.

I can fully tolerate and love for the person or friends that I care.

even treat them better than myself. 

And I'm kinda sensitive for certain issue.

So I'm very appreciate for those who really understand me and will never cross my line.

THAT'S ME!!!!!

I don't expect other people to tolerate with me..follow my style..
Coz I know that's real life.
But please do think wise before speak something out.
I fully understand people like to judge people by their face or what else..

Who knows,right??

One thing is please don't misunderstand me by judging my face or anything else.

It just show that you are not know me well.

p/s : *Deep breath.........*

Calm myself..calm my mind..

Learn how to not care much.